|Anya made a stand-in for K, until she can join us at the table in person!|
She drew a face and wrote, "To K_____" and added 8 lines of XOXOs.
I wanted to write down one other part of the story, though -- to remember God's kindness to us throughout this whole process. As we followed other families' stories during Anya's adoption, we would often see strange or inexplicable things happen to them. Our first adoption took two years and one month, and followed the expected timelines -- and we were overjoyed to finally meet Anya Rashi and welcome her into our family. But none of those extraordinary or dramatic things happened as we waited.
This time, however, over and over again, there have been amazing and overwhelming things that have happened as we've waited for K. I think God, in his loving kindness, knew that our 4 1/2 year journey would be difficult, and chose to remind us that He hadn't forgotten about K or us.
First, He provided financially in unexpected ways, through people's generous gifts toward Peter's marathon, through receiving a grant from Show Hope, and most recently, through an unexpected donation from a family we only know a little bit. We have been blown away by those things.
On a more personal level, He let us see how He is acting on our behalf in ways that are so loving and intimate. The story of K's referral was one of those times -- God chose to "show off" a little bit, and demonstrate that He indeed heard the desires of this mama's heart.
Then, earlier this summer, He graciously showed us what happened to another little girl we'd received information about two years ago. She has the same name as our K, but we weren't home-study-approved to accept a child her age. God orchestrated connections so we would know that she found her family, and is thriving -- and we even got to see recent pictures of her!
And now, He gave another gift to us. Last Friday morning, I woke up from an incredibly vivid dream. I don't dream regularly about K, and this was only the second time in 4+ years I had ever dreamt about her or our adoption process. In the dream, we heard that her case had been presented and approved in court. I dreamed that I was jumping up and down and shouting for joy at the good news.
When I woke up, Peter had already left for an early meeting, so I told the kids about the dream. It was so vivid and real, that I actually recorded the date on our calendar. I was wondering if someday, we would look back and discover that something significant had happened on that date, Friday, July 19, 2013.
And then came the unexpected e-mail on Sunday, saying that very thing -- K's court case had been heard! Of course, we don't yet know which day her court case was . . . but I have a strange feeling that, when we receive all of her paperwork, we will find out it was heard on Friday, July 19.
I hope that our daughter, when she has questions about her purpose and destiny, or the reasons why her birth family couldn't take care of her, will find reassurance in these details. While it is never God's "plan A" that children would be torn away from their first families, he can bring something good from a painful situation.
His eye is on you, little sparrow K . . . He sees you, He rejoices over you, and He has a plan and purpose for your life. And we are so humbled and overwhelmed that He's chosen to include us in that. We love you, dear one, and we can't wait to meet you.
|Anya with a balloon animal made by yours truly -- |
I never thought that part of motherhood would be learning to make balloon animals!